冬冬说她不喜欢冷,而她来找我的时候我的房间刚开了窗,有些冷...那天她反复强调了很多遍,她喜欢暖暖的...我习惯每天晚上闭上眼睛前回想一下一天发生过的事情,于是她的怕冷又被强调一遍.

其实我并不怕冷,还经常喜欢开窗看书上网,所以冷字对我来说是另外一个意义,一种感觉,寂寞+落寞+无人关心,没有人给予温暖的目光,觉得自己很多时候是为别人活着的,所以当突然发现自己没谁可以倾诉的时候就会很不知所措,愣神,不是因为内心没有情绪,而是因为无人观看,那么就不需要把它演绎出来,像一个小孩,摔倒后有妈妈哄才会那样大声地哭,说自己好痛...

如果冷是这样一个意义,那么我想谁都是怕冷的...不知道什么时候喜欢上了拥抱这个动作,也同时很庆幸周围有一些朋友喜欢给予这个动作,尤其冬冬,每次见面都给予两次之多...一个会让人不再感觉冷的动作,不需要直视对方的脸,而只得到温暖...也许我们都很贫穷,但我们仍然可以互相给予...

P.S.:与本文无关的,感谢LEE昨天带来的一个惊喜...

Great! With the first day of Mar, the snow has stopped, it's warm today, though it's another Tue, I do like it...

Got Tori's new album today, <The Beekeeper>, this woman is always alone(but I don't think she's lonely), in her album, she talks with everything, except human being; she talks about everything, except...love...

Sorry for haven't renewed for a while...

It has been raining since I woke up...it's just another rainy day, just another rainy morning, just another moment feeling so blank...

Thursday is my favourite day in a week, cos I got only two hours' lecture, start at 2pm...why not Saturday or Sunday? because... they make me feel nothing but BLANK...

Life is so boring, with so few miracles we could encounter (if u don't take disasters as miracles...), and it is full of lies... even our eyes would cheat us, u sure what u see is the naked truth? Reality has always been modified or hidden and even no one knows what is reality at all! People who grasp the power take their illusion of reality as the reality and make all of us believe in it, then compromise to their regulation. OMG, what a terrible thought! Then it becomes IMPOSSIBLE for us to pursuit the truth, what we can do is to accept the reality that some sort of illusion is the reality and finally, give up the illusionary request of 'reality'. This is the reality of reality...Such a big lie... God knows where the reality is or whether it exists...

10th: Lost in Translation

cannot communicate, sometimes not cos you are speaking a foreign language, but in  foreign thoughts...if I don't understand ur language, the only thing I need to do is getting someone to translate for me, but what if I can't follow ur mind?

9th: Seeing the unseen, knowing the unknown

If U've hidden something from the beginning, then keep it hidden, never let me know...

8th: Talking about myself, expressing who I am

Myself is the most complex thing I've met in the world, an entity which has come into being for 19 years, but still blank...

7th: Being informed that U've got a wrong image of me

Maybe because the fear of expressing who I am, I'm in this fear; or maybe cos I'm in fear of this, I'm in fear of that...

6th: Being Marginalised

Nothing is more embarrassing than being ignored, no one wanna care about U...to some extent, I'm fond of being the leader, no matter how many people I'm in priority of ... put into Chinese:我可以不存在，但不能不主宰．．．lol, don't think I'm aggressive, but do feel I'm progressive...

5th: Experiencing "2"

Everything goes wrong on Tuesdays, I was born on 22nd Jan, 1986, maybe this the biggest fault I've ever met...

4th: Competing in a competition

Because of this, I've lost a lot of chance...why we have to get involved in such a bloody game to get what we want?

3rd: Being at the gap

I'm now in a cultural gap, can't get involved here, where I am, cos I wasn't born here; neither can get involved at the place I was born, cos I've been away for long enough to generate  alienation...

2nd: Suddenly find out my loneliness

I've been with it for too long...never get rid of, it's even much clearer when I'm surrounded by others...

1st: Getting hurt

 Never experienced so far, that makes it even worse to me, I know I'm never far from it, that's why I always keep being rational...

I have been both praised and criticised for being rational, not as emotional as a girl...well, I'm not that cold blooded as you think...I'm rational cos I'm a bit illusional...I may don't know what I like but I'm sure about what I don't like...there might be no one turns my illusion to reality, then that's my reality, I accept...but never COMPROMISE!!!

I'm not ur solution, neither U are mine...

"I stay in the wonder land..." (Film:<The Matrix>, 2004)

As consumers, teenagers & youngsters like to buy all things that give immediate pleasure and little lasting use...

Post-modernism: a lack of faith in meta-narratives.

Introduce you to a definition, well, to some extent, this is not a final definition or even a wrong one to this term itself. Then what does it believe? It's funny to think it as a circle, on one hand, as a theory it certainly takes some position within it, while on the other hand it turns to disagree with everything, social stereotypes, gender inequalities, racism, Marxism... Then finally, itself, . Well, maybe I should transfer to the department of Philosophy from sociology...

Just apply to ourselves, as we are the generation who has been mostly influenced by this post-modern society, with globalisation and endless battles of equalities or opprtunities. What can we learn from post-modernism? That's the way of being critical, not only to the things around us, but ourselves as well...keep refreshing our conciousness and try to accept something that we were opposed to yesterday, always be compatible and progressive. Notice: I mean progressive but not aggressive, ...

confused? So am I! All right, then, sorry about my murmuring...